~~Sadness~~

Well the horror I felt was going on in my family has come true. My cousin was questioned for the murder of his father this morning. My heart has been so heavy with the feelings that he had something to do with it and praying I was wrong, but the feelings became a reality this morning when he was arrested. The funeral was yesterday and it was a truly sad time, so many people for a small town country farmer's service. Even though he was a professor and had many degrees that is how he thought of himself, a small town, good old boy who lived for his family and worked hard for years to provide for them.
People thought he was crazy for building that "bunker" on his land. I know before my cousin Janet died she had said "My dad has lost his freaking mind", but he wanted to be prepared to care and provide for his family if there was a disaster. Now to find that the bunker and the allure of what was in it has caused his death, maybe Janet was right. It certainly caused Roger to lose his mind. How on earth could you explain cutting your father's throat, ear to ear, other than you have lost your freaking mind?? Money, collector coins, guns and ammo--- was it worth it?? How could anyone look at the man who gave them life, helped them through hard times, sat beside a hospital bed after a 4 wheeler accident and prayed for their life, and kill them in cold blood??
I can't give details because there is still an investigation and there will be a trial, but I can say the way it was done was ruthless and cold, (like there could be any other way) worse than an animal should be treated and my heart is sick.